Ranting Addict

Hello. Another rant is coming in. Ready? Okay this is not the literal diary like the title suggests. 'Diary' here i refer to life journal that i put on the net for all this while. To actually reflect things back, i have a littttle bit of regret of deleting almost everything i posted online - on all of my social media platforms that i own in the past - be it on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, Askfm, Sarahah, etc etc (with multiple accounts that i used to create back then). Blogger too (i have a few blogs before this one). Quite a number of platforms.  I think i started to be an active internet user since i was in form 3. It started earlier than that but i can't recall much since i have a very limited access to internet and mayyybe i was too into 'studying', that i don't indulge myself much in internet stuffs. Form 3, i started to own a Facebook account and that starts my so-called-approaching-agenda to a few senior-crush. Kinda stupid thing to do. But yea...

hello. it's time again for another ranting session (which i did quite frequent lately. lol maybe i'm having too much of free time of being unemployed) so yesterday, i had an interview for a job - a dental assistant to be exact. and that was like.. my very first time of attending to a job interview - a virtual interview via Google Meet. yep, at the age of 25. what an achievement, i know. attending an interview - makes me realized a lot. i figured, i actually have been avoiding 'adulting' stuffs a lot, includes how i actually would want my future to be. there's a few step that i need to get it done prior to the interview. i have sent my resume and cover letter through Indeed.com, and i was asked to fill in a questionnaire via Google Form specifically for that company. commonly-expected questions asked, but they took me a good an hour to actually reflect myself and give my best-honest-but-simple answers. some of the questions that got me pondering: why do you want to w...

Mungkin.. setiap daripada kita merasakan perkara yang sama. Merasakan 'kurang' berbanding yang lain. Mungkin.. kita juga sering kali terlupa untuk bersyukur. Kita terlalu memandang rendah terhadap apa yang kita punya walhal semuanya cukup terhidang dan tidak pula kita merasakan susah kerana hal tersebut. Cuma.. mungkin hati ini terlalu tamak mahukan perkara yang orang lain ada, yang kita kira ‘lebih’. Dan aku fikir, mungkin kita patut menyenaraikan apa yang kita punya dan capai, berbanding berterusan melihat dan mengagumi kepunyaan orang lain. Cuba perihalkan diri sendiri tanpa meletakkan perkataan 'belum’, 'tiada’, atau perkara yang melibatkan individu lain. Tulislah hanya tentang diri kita - mungkin dengan ini akan mengajar untuk lebih bersyukur.

i saw this one post earlier on twitter - a link connects to someone's curiouscat account. Anon : macam mana nak move on from our past sin? aku selalu takut my future partner tak boleh terima masa silam aku.  Ib : bertaubat dan tak perlu bercerita kat sesiapa. Anon : tapi kalau partner tanya, perlu bagitahu ke? Ib : tak. Anon : aku ni dah la handsome. quite successful too. dari sekolah menengah lagi perempuan selalu confess kat aku, yet aku tak pernah couple apatah lagi berzina. tapi kalau nanti dapat isteri yang dah tak suci dan dia rahsiakan kisah silam dia, and i continue living my life believing that she is, how dizalimi would i be? Ib : cuba cerita apa kerugian yang kau dapat dari situasi tu? short kind of answer, but holds a really significant meaning. i get familiar with this kind of statement when i was reading books by Teme Abdullah - Empayar series.  so let's kill two birds with one stone, shall we? (let's digging in both the text above and Teme's book - if you...

'following the flow' familiar? how would you understand this term in a general life context? some might say, following the flow is to live a life just the way it is, to accept what's coming and let them go when they're out of reach. simply let the flow leads your life without doing anything. or, do your very best to shape how do you want your life turns out to be. but whatever happens you'll going to accept it because life goes on anyway. you grasp a good grip of how life flows - you remove every circumstances that's coming your way to have a smooth journey, but you could not avoid certain things that might cause your flow to be obstructed, somehow. but you keep going anyway. or, it might refers to the flow of the society you live in. you just decided to just follow what the society told you to be?  - uh huh, this kind of people exists.  aaand which one clicks the best to you? i live with the second one. i did my best - fit to my own capability (i thought so), b...