Oct 12, 2016

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This year, he was supposed to be 65. But things happened unplanned - the counting stopped at 63 on 12th of October 2016.

And the same exact date finally come this year. 12th of October 2018. How time flies. It has been 2 years that he left but I still vividly remember his last smile, a few days before he was admitted to hospital. And that was after we finished performing solat maghrib together.

The flashback keep on repeating itself.

If only I knew that it was the last smile that I would see before he closed his eyes forever, I would picture the smile and keep that forever.

If only I knew that it was the last time that we spent time together, I would spend it a little longer.

If only..

sigh

I miss him, like really.

Oct 12, 2018. [1110]

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